One Year Ago Today

0It is kind of hard to believe that it has been a year since my first book, Eyes to Heaven, has been published.  Being a published author is something I have wanted to do for a long time.  Honestly it seemed like something that was just going to be a distant dream that might come true one day.

Over the years I looked at different self-publishing sites seeing what my different options were through that route.  Crazily enough there was a part of me that was thinking of maybe it wouldn’t be too hard to just self-publish.   The hard part would just be writing the book, right?

I’m laughing now as I write that.  Such a silly thought.

After looking at different sites I still seemed to think of it as maybe one day.  My mom even pointed out a site to do it myself.  (It just so happens that I dedicated Eyes to Heaven to my mother too. ❤ )  Early last year I suddenly had this moment when I was daydreaming of being published that felt like a kick in the butt.  I had to realize I was just going to dream about it for the rest of my life unless I actually TRIED to do something about it.

I took a deep breath and decided this was it was time to do something.

Since Middle school I have written poems.  When I started I had some things to work through and writing poems was that way for me.  It is that moment that I can cry to finally let that emotion of hurt, betrayal to happiness out.  Some have been things that don’t really have anything to do with me.  They would just be inspired by a phrase or TV show or movie.

So, those poems are where I decided to start with publishing.  At times it has seemed like a tiring road to get a book done.  But, honestly I wouldn’t have it any other way.  I have enjoyed it every moment of it because I also get to learn so much.  There are even things from what I have learned that if I could I might would go back and change with the first book.

But, I am learning to just enjoy the moment and the way things are.  I saw someone say on Goodreads that the poems read more like letters than poems, and I can see her point.  I’ve been one to enjoy getting things to rhyme.  I was just trying to get feelings out and this was my way.

There may be a few downs to self-publishing but in the end it isn’t what I am going to focus on.  I want to enjoy the good and enjoy the journey.

One of my favorite poems from Eyes to Heaven is about finally having that moment when you realize that there isn’t always tomorrow.  If there is someone that you want to help don’t say you will do it tomorrow.  If there is something you want to change then change it.  Tomorrow doesn’t always come.  Check it our here on Amazon in paperback and kindle form.

Needing One More Day

Tomorrow I will talk to them

Tomorrow I will help save them

Tomorrow, tomorrow

I will do it then

Tomorrow I will save the world

Tomorrow I will save myself

Tomorrow, tomorrow

I will do it then

Tomorrow has come

What has happened?

Where has tomorrow gone

I still have so much to do

Today I was going to grow closer to you

Today I was going to talk to them

Today, today

I was going to do it

Today I was going to save the world

Today I was going to save myself

Tomorrow, today

Both are gone

Please one more day

That is all I need

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